can i just say

that I love you guys
with everything that happened last year, I STILL get really upset and frustrated sometimes when I think of just...how awful some people were to me, people who I had been nothing but good to. I'm an extremely loyal person so it just baffles me when someone you think you really know turns around and talks shit about you behind your back. or when they make plans right in front of you without inviting you when you're literally sitting right between them (when you've specifically told them that it hurts when they don't invite you to things). or when someone subtweets you on twitter calling you a whore (for no good reason) and the person you thought would stand up for you or even just validate that you have a right to be upset sides with the other person. or when they start talking about inside jokes and ignore you and refuse to answer you when  you ask multiple times what the joke is, and yet they still keep talking about them afterwards. IN OTHER WORDS
I DON'T GET WHEN PEOPLE ARE DELIBERATELY HUGE ASSHOLES TO PEOPLE THAT ARE SUPPOSEDLY THEIR FRIENDS.
and I still get INCREDIBLY frustrated and angry about all these kinds of things from last year even though they are in the past and I've cut a lot of people out of my life.
BUT. no matter how upset and just plain mad I get...there's always wonderful people online that never fail to make me smile, and this isn't just directed at my close online friends, but every single person who gives me a watch, favs a pic or takes the time to comment on my art. I mean, I can come online and have people tell me that I'm one of their favourite artists or that I'm an inspiration to them. I DON'T KNOW GUYS, IT'S JUST AMAZING TO ME and it really calms me down when I get worked up over things that...well to be honest, they don't even really matter anymore. it's just hard to move past things sometimes when you don't really get any real closure to them.
anyway, anyone who knows me remotely well knows that once I do get hurt and angry and upset it can be IMPOSSIBLE to calm me down, like...I'm sure there's quite a few people here who have seen me genuinely /pissed off/ at some point or another, and I go straight for the throat, so to speak. there's a reason I identify with wolverines so much LOL
so it's really special that I can come on here or go on furry-paws and it can put me in a different head space completely, just because you guys take the time to do something for or say something nice to me and I guess I just wanted you all to know how much I really do appreciate that
I'M SORRY FOR GETTING REAL CHEESY ON Y'ALL LOVE YOU xoxo
STAY POSITIVE and if anyone's having a bad day, bad week, bad month or even a bad year just try to keep your head up and give this song a listen <3
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